Today started off good. In fact, today started off GREAT!!! I woke up with both my babies fast asleep in my bed – something that hardly ever happens as we don’t promote the boys sleeping in our bed, but last night, Ethan was scared of the thunder and lightning so I let him sleep with us, and then Riley jumped in at 4:45am. So I woke up smiling at them with my heart overflowing with love. Then I remembered that tonight is the night that I’m going to watch Annie at Montecasino, one of my absolute favourite musicals! Don’t be jealous but I scored a free ticket late last night, totally unexpected 🙂 🙂 🙂 A week night show with great company…happy healthy children…what more can a person ask for?!
All was going well until I went to a breast cancer talk at 10am this morning. I walked in waiting to learn more, but what happened took me by surprise. I think that subconsciously, I had Gail on my mind. Everything that the doctor presenting said this morning had me thinking of her and how she battled with her own personal fight and eventually lost and passed away earlier this year. I literally cried from the time that the first slide came onto the screen and didn’t stop. What made the tears come even more was when I saw the list of symptoms of possible breast cancer on one of her slides, and lo and behold, I’ve experienced one of them a few times over the last few months. Of course, I know that it’s nothing to worry about. But at the same time, it made me a little anxious, so I walked out of the talk feeling absolutely terrible!
My mood lifted as the day went on, but for the most part, I haven’t been feeling all that great. And then just when I thought I’d take a quick walk downstairs with my friend to take a small break, I walked into the ladies’ bathrooms to hear somebody wailing in one of the bathroom cubicles. I walked over as another lady who I know walked out and I asked her what was wrong with the lady crying. She said that she has no idea, she can’t get her to talk. So I walked in and rubbed her shoulder gently. She was literally leaning against the wall balling like she didn’t even have the energy to stand up. I asked her whether I could call anybody for her, but she continued crying uncontrollably. A few minute later, one of her colleagues walked in and asked her what the problem is. Her reply – my brother’s just passed away. I just broke down crying there and then. I felt so heartsore for her. Somebody I don’t even know, but I could feel her pain.
Guys, life is short hey?! And I’m realizing that more and more people my age are dying every single day. Anyway…just my thoughts. I’m emotionally drained right now 😦 Hopefully tonight’s function will take my mind off this…